I'll bring you back to the stars.

Ok i'll continue from the last post. As mentioned, i was up so early that i bet santa clause would be shocked beyond words. I called Sow in hoping that he would be awake and accompany me in having a pizza or two. No luck he was still sleeping. Then i decided to go ahead with cutting my hair. Bastard ghey place wasn't open at all though it was already 10:30 in the morning!! Now i remember why i never like to wake up so early in the morning.... cause there's nothing to do and no one to go out with! What to do what to do, faster think or i'll soon get back my momentum of sleeping. MOVIE! I could always count on that i thought to myself. With my luck they were showing A League of Extraordinary Gentleman in Mid Valley at 11 a.m. As it was already coming i didn't have time to call anyone to go with me, so i went ahead with it alone. Brought back the soulful memories of Melbourne where i caught movies alone.

It was not a bad show. Better then i expected it to be actually. Always have this mind set where 'heroes' movies would turn out shit but LXG was surprisingly entertaining. Pretty sure the ticket fucker thought i'm some sad lonely ass who has, not only, nothing to do, but no one to go with to a movie. Well fuck you. I tried calling my hair stylist again and he was open this time! weeeee. As i was driving from Mid Valley to ss2, i could feel the evil dreadful part of me saying "Ben you must sleep, or you won't make it tonight. Ben you got to take some shut eye or you'll definately have some fucked up headache tonight" I was like NO! NO! NO! NO! NO!!! After the intense arguement with my innerself, the positive side prevail and i went for my hair cut. After then only i succumbed to my laziness and went home to bed, not only before i finish a nice plate of 'kai farn' for lunch. God, eating then sleeping, what the hell? Oh ya i wasn't suppose to sleep as i was to meet up with Zing and Sow at Sungai Wang to get their PS2 but alas, mom needed the car.

Thought to myself, although my hair cut was fucked, i did enjoy the limited hours given. =D Had dinner in Zing's place at night. Fuck dude, that was some killer steamboat u and Faith provided us with. I'm glad there were ample amount of everything to fit such a large guest, that would be me, ermmmm i mean alot of people! My condolences to Sow and Zing on their PS2. I know my 'twisting the cable' way was shit but i did tried to fix it! hee hee! Their PS2 are majorly beyond crippy and freaky. It works at times but gets toast mostly. Hope the both of you'll get a better replacement console later on today.

Bout Genting, yeah i did went up that god forsaken place one more time. This time i actually drove! Can you believe it? I actually drove all the way up there. Was a last minute thang like before, where i suggested to Mike if he wanted to join the rest above. Breakers was pretty much zombified so we thought why not? I thought it would be a really slow drive up there, say 1 hour or so, as my car was only a 1.3 although it's manual. But i manage to pull it off in 45 minutes. Not letting any kancil or kelisa overtaking me along the way. Unfortunately my car couldn't go any further when i reached the parking lot next to coffee bean. I was on 1st gear but the car just couldn't move up another level of the car park. It just suspended there and, in the end, i had to reverse and head for the bottom levels. I told u Genting was cursed! CURSED I TELL YOU!! What's more my friends were chilling out in Ria Apartment where it's believed to be haunted. Though i don't believe in ghost but i do not encourage it as well.

I do have thoughts to write but i just can't seem to put it into words. Guess i'll just hit the sack. G'nite for now everyone. *ZZZzzZzzzzz*... *stop it angelina... giggle*

My god, i must have forgotten how good it felt to actually sleep early and wake up at a decent hour. *stretch* I feel so alive this morning! It has been sometime. Slept pretty early this morning as i was having a dreadful headache last night. I just fell on the bed and doze off in a matter of seconds. I love coming back home feeling extremely tired and just force myself to take a bath then drop off to dream land. Aspecially after raves, when my whole body aches, telling me that i've overstrained it, and i just lay down on the bed relaxing. The feeling is extraordinary i'm serious.

Think i'll go cut my hair. Not gonna pour away the morning just like that. Have to savor it since it's but so rare that i can actually wake up THIS early and feeling THIS awake. Friends asking me to head up to the place i hate most again. Yes u guess it again, it's blardee Genting!! Most of them are planning on gambling and the remaining, drinking. No doubt i do appreciate their effort on doing something different, but i do not gamble and i don't really intoxicate myself with alcohol. Afraid that i would be bored considering the trip up there is nothing less then an effort of driving for 45 minutes or so. But we'll see, the day has started out pretty good, and maybe it'll end up as good as the one when i went up there for the rave. =D

Cant seem to drag myself to sleep. Was at my Unc's place from 8 to 10 last night. Hoping to get some shut eye (half an hour) before my night starts but the angel, more like devil, woke me up at 12:30 pm. Now i'm totally fucked and tomorrow there's heaps of stuffs to be done. With any luck i'll probably be drowned in a never ending coma. Gawdd i gotta change this slacking life style of mine.

Sorry to those 18 people who tried calling. Left my phone at home accidently and couldnt return your calls. Dialing back that amount of phone numbers is certainly not funny. Oh ya, Linkin Park tickets will be out starting today but i couldn't find out where is it sold though. So if anyone of you know, do tell.

Met up with the 'akarians' earlier just now at Horus Cafe in sstwo. It was fun seeing them again. Watching them there playing warcraft while chit chatting with me. When i see them, many controversial thoughts fills my head as they are but so different nowadays compared to last time. Although they may potray the 'fuck with me and i'll fuck with u' kinda attitude, yet they're all warm at heart. And to see just how simple they live their life out, working during the day and probably war craft and then yam chah to finish off the night, it's seriously amazing. More astonishing is that they've been friends for quite some time now. Not a care in the world and all. When asked, they explain... when said, they listen. These are the little things that matters and which gives me hope that there's still friends in them. =D

It was a disaster day for Leong today when we decided to have a drink at Souled Out. A big big mistake for bringing Sow along. People who knows him, would understand his never ending passion for getting people, aspecially on special occasion, plastered. That was exactly what happened to Leong tonight. Few jugs of beer for starters, since Leong voted for them instead of alchohol. One by one, we took our turn to have a toast with him. At first his complexion was fairly red, then it started blending into a furious furshia. His eyes were beyond scary, red like as those of rotten strawberry. As the final drink, graveyard, which was some nasty shit i must admit, came right infront of Leong, he was like totally fucked.

Took him bout, say, 45 minutes contemplating on whether should he throw in the towel or just prove to millions he was a man. With Sow standing by with a waste paperback, in case any vomiting occurs, me patting his back, he gulped the first half down. I was like SWEET MOTHER OF CHRIST!, and he was like HOLY FUCKING SHIT GOD PLEASE TAKE ME BACK NOW! We cheered for him though. Although we were giving him motivation that it was the final drink of the night, yet in our heads we knew obviously that he was fubared. Hee Hee! Sure enough he turned to Sow without much hesitation and started vomiting. Waited for another 15 minutes or so and he finished the last half of the drink, and of course turning to Sow again for the very last time.

You're the man Leong! Tested and Proven! But you got wasted anyway. Hee Hee! Happy Birthday dude! He kept chanting the whole night "I'm not going down! i'm not going down!" as though his dear life was depending on it. kekekekke! You can have your revenge on Sow next year don't worry.



And she's only 15...

Got it from Justin's website. It's insanely low man her jeans. What is this world coming to when a 15 year old wears these stuffs.. HEAVEN OF COURSE!!!

And before i forget...

WELCOME BACK TINKLESSSS!!!

Was good to see u in Soulded Out last night. An my ear hole isn't that big rightttt. Should monitor those in Sungai Wang. Massive!!

It's Leong's 22nd birthday today. So if any of you see him, do give him a big ghey hug alrights. Even if you don't know him just do it as a hug contains heaps of love in them. As in heaps of ghey love. =D hee hee! Hope you're happy and have loads of fun filled experience, not forgetting gifts as well!, on this very day. Sorry la bro, u know i'm always broke around u. Don't understand why? There's no explanation. Ben + Leong = Ben's wallet empty. But i'm coming tomorrow for the dinner. So see you there ya!

It's was Flin's and Kwee Heng's birthday yesterday. I swear that the world is infested with loads of September babies. I mean, i have alot of friends whose birthday falls on this month. We bought Kwee Heng a cake which was also presented to him in Breakers last night. I'm telling u breakers is like a home for all of us there. Flin, if you were back i would have brought u out for dinner! =D pity u couldn't make it back. Missing u like hell! *sigh... see u at the end of the year. *Muaks..

Met up with Wei Chen, Leong, Sui Lin, Irene, Jessie and Wen Dee today at Maverik's place. Lunch was in place. As perusual i had my standard yee meen which to me is good and tasty. Jessie kept banging me on my rod, and curry puffs jokes. She had the upper hand cause i was still lethargic and hot from the scorching afternoon sun. I'll get u back at night jessie! u wait... =D Unfortunately i couldn't join the rest of them at Nouvo for the Dj Competition and the worst part was that Maverik was spinning. I always enjoy his set as he loves to spin hard tunes. Sorry man, i had some errands to run for my mom. A pity that he didn't make it to the finals. There'll be many more competitions for u to strut your shit dude no worries.

Been really on a pms mood lately. Not sure what sprouts these sudden sensitive feelings. Get really irritated and agitated easily. Although i pride myself of being a patient person, at times, i do suffer from these uncontrollable emotions and i hate it so! I never like to be moody, angry and sensitive. It's never fun. Don't get to enjoy myself and always lost in my own world, thinking of killing everyone. Despise being bothered by stuffs which is unfortunately unavoidable because it puts my relationship with friends at risk. At times i do wish that someone would grant me the serenity to accept things i can't chance, the courage to change things i can't accept. As Julian would say "Help me to remember, when i'm having a really bad day and it seems that people are trying to piss me off, it takes 42 muscles to frown and only 4 to extend my middle finger". So here :-

*Ecstacy.....*

Frankly i don't feel nuts. Maybe i'm just overall a nice person =p. Nah, i just cool down easily and hope for the best.

'From the steamy recesses of the southern swamps comes a figure cloaked in mystery. The Necromancer, as his name implies, is an unseemly form of sorcerer whose spells deal with the raising of the dead and the summoning and control of various creatures for his purposes. Though his goals are often aligned with those of the forces of Light, some do not think that these ends can justify his foul means. Long hours of study in dank mausolea have made his skin pale and corpselike, his figure, skeletal. Most people shun him for his peculiar looks and ways, but none doubt the power of the Necromancer, for it is the stuff of nightmares.'

- A Necromancer -

I've developed a sudden crave for Linkin Park songs since Monday. It's the kind of thing where i just woke up and said "Gotta get Linkin Park today". Crazeee. I mean yeah the first album was fantastic, aspecially papercut, but i was never sure why i wasn't hooked unto the second one as fast as the first. Anyway they're coming down on the 15th of October and i don't think i'm going to miss it for the world. =D Please come everybody! And we can see tEh very hot sexxee chicks who may get splash by water. wooooooooo

Linkin Park - Meteora

Caught Sinbad last night at 1Utama with a few friends. Didn't expect much out of it, however, it was entertaining enough to keep me glued on my chair. If i was Sinbad i would have taken the evil goddess instead of the 'ok-ok-only' chick. The goddess was like some slutty whore out of Taiwan Public House. And yeah they should have changed the story line on why is he the Legend of the Seven Seas instead of some crappy ass Book of the Peace.

Ohhh did i forget to mention that i got my hands on this tiny Levi's jeans catalogue where i can admire the M593 at any time. The model for teh jeans is hotz0rs as well! This is really some sick fetish and i know i need help but yet i'm enjoying every bit of it. =D

Had a fruitful, mindless conversation with Sow last night. Just kept ranting on and on bout problems, opinions, and basically what our believes on controversial topics such as religion. Felt quite relieved and satisfied after what was shared between. Always a pleasure Sow. Sounds like we just had sex. =D hahahhaha. Anyway here's one of Sow's on form days back in Melbourne.

I'm sorry Paul and Kim that i couldn't make it to Chilis last night. Had something to do at hartamas. I know i know i'm always there. Will meet up with u one of these days kay. Promise. Kim, u look great with the purple dyed hair. If it's still that colour that is. Paul is one lucky guy. Give dot.com a hug for me kay. So adorable. Not sure if he can get along with my 2 lapsaps. Hee Hee.

Still get turn on by this pic of the tatuchicks.

On the hilarious side, Gavin was his usual clowny self again today! Oh my god! will this painful / tiring experiences ever ends. Hee Hee! Had some underwear fell in the toilet stories, nearly tripped cause of miscalculations, and an unfortunate incident with his car as it was scretched by some other big ass one. *consoles Gavin* It's ok brother, u still rock!

Congraduations David on winning the VIP foosball competition today. Although it's only for today, hell the RM150 bucks is well worth the effort harboured into each game. Really can't stand those sensitive fuckers who takes the game a little too serious and gets upset cause his so-called skills weren't present at that specific momment. Gawddd if u suck u SUCK boy!

Am happy for Andrew since Jen came back from UK. Been sometime since i last seen his genuine 'happy-i'm-not-alone-at-last' kind of facial expression. I guess he only deserves nothing but the best. Going through LDR must have been quite an ordeal for him. Not problems faced but knowing something he has so dear yet he can't get a hold on physically. I'm sure the patience had paid off in full now. =D You still love me right.....

I found the pic Celyn!!!! Can you mail me some of Faith's pictures as well so i can post up as well. Luv u all *hug =D

Isn't she adorable

I seem to be lurving everyone. Probably i'm a little mentally challenged. But's it's good and reassuring don't you agree? I hate you people. =p

For centuries, two races have evolved hidden deeply within human culture – the aristocratic, sophisticated Vampires, and the brutal, feral Lycans (werewolves). To humanity, their existence is no more than a whisper of a myth. But to each other, they are lifelong mortal rivals, sworn to wage a secret war until only one race is left standing. In the midst of this ongoing struggle, a Vampire warrior, Selene, discovers a Lycan plot to kidnap a young human doctor. After shadowing Michael through the city, she forms an unprecedented bond with him, and when the Lycans make their next move, Selene is there to fend off their vicious assault. As she races to save Michael and unravel the Lycan intrigue surrounding him, Selene discovers a secret that has terrifying repercussions for both tribes--a nefarious plan to awaken a new invincible species of predator that combines the strengths of both creatures and the weaknesses of neither, which threatens to tip the balance of power in favor of the werewolves, who have been on the losing end of the struggle for centuries.

- Underworld -

Underworld should be fairly promising. Caught the trailer at mid valley just now and it looked great! But anyway it's just a trailer where they usually insert the best scenes in to tempt the audience. The medallion looked killer when i caught the trailer but it turned out to be a little more then dissapointing. Not one of Jacky Chan's best i would say. At least they had Claire Forlani in there to compensate. My gawd... she's....she's...i'm telling u she's really... REALLY.. *faints* Not forgetting Kate Beckinsale in Underworld.. *fantasizes* Would u just look at how natural she holds the gun... Wonder how it would feel if.....anyway do catch it everyone!

Welcome back Pat!!! Hope you really enjoyed your holiday and savored the experience u had there. Did u had any ghost experience in the forest? If you have, do tell it to Gavin ya =D Make sure it's like 4:00 something in the morning when u berstory him. And throw some roaches legs at him while u're at it. hee hee!

Hey San... Was nice chatting with you yesterday. Your voice...oh my god.. brings back memories of the good ol' days in Melbourne. And yeah the long overdue apology i owe u for now being able to pick up your call on my birthday. I know i know, it's a long distance call and it should have been prioritised. But u know my hearing on hp is shit, and besides, the vibrate mode doesn't help as my pants is a little too big. U better be back next year CNY. Missing u heaps. Tell Mindy and Sau Yan i said hi. Wish they were here enjoying their holidays already.

The day started out with meeting Mike, Kwee Heng, Andrew, and Khay Kuan at Kak's cafe near Maverik's place. Was bout 3:15 pm then. KK was telling us how morbid the experience at Backroom were. Seems his girlgirl is one of the organizer or something like that so he witness the entire masacre. Remind me of the ol' hyperzon/1 Utama fight days.

Had to accompany Andrew then to collect his order of red roses at Mutiara Hotel in KL as Jennifer was due back at 5 in the evening. Think he bought a dozen roses. Do girls really fancy roses? I never will know or understand what tEh chicks sees in flowers. All i know percentage fancies red/white roses, gerberas, and lilies. I know enough that sending flowers to them chicks is probably a do or die situation when u're trying to court her. So which flowers do u girls fancy?

Back to the story, after obtaining the roses Andrew dropped me back at my car quickly as he and i were already late. Went home as fast as my car could carry me (poor car), a quick shower was needed, downed my dinner hastly, and rushed off to Sunway Hotel for their graduation. Was actually quite enjoyable watching friends walking along the stage to receive their certs. A sense of pride and happiness.

Me, Leong, and Gavin were discussing on whether should we make the trip down to bliss. As it was already 9:45 p.m, i thought maybe i would take a skip on it. Leong and Gavin were quite tired already so they didn't really wanna go. Thought i could take a rain check but then Gavin told me that Sui Lin specifictly told him to tell him that i had promised her to go down.

Me, as a person who never fancied dissapointing people, drove like a mad man who, as though his balls was on fire, down to KL. Contemplating on whether to go in as it was RM 35 while i was driving. Maybe i should just lepak outside and play some foosie till i heard the hard beat sounds outside Blliss. But then Crist broke to me that it was the last 5 minutes of the final Dj competitor.

I was like sheeeet. Oh well, foosie never failed me before. Was joined by a podium dancer chick while i was having a game with Crist. Sorry Crist! She just kept kacauing. Not to say she was tEh hotness eh? sheesshh.

Ok these few nights out with the rest and Gavin were really an enjoying one. U really crack the hell out of not only me but the others as well dude. Just by looking at you would put me through endless delirium. I'm telling you, if u keep this up i'm gonna finally get my wish, laugh till i die. Although it may be orgasmic, but yet it's painful man! Hee Hee! U gotta give me some of that 'charm' u have on chicks too. And those 'trial and error' shit. Roaches legs and all. Is there no end to this onslaught of clowniness? Hell i'm even laughing while typing this. *bows to you bro*...

Seems muh 'Boh' duck has been of some advantage to me lately. " Oh my god how cute!!!!" / "Where did u get that from?!?!" / "*Rubs duck*" / "*Plays duck with some erotic intention*". YOU GO DUCK!

Congrats to Sow, Wei Chen, and Zing. Hope u savored this momment as it happens only once. Unless of course, masters, phd, etc, are in consideration. Thank you all for attending mine back in Melbourne. It certainly was nice to have friends there on your graduation day. Sense of satisfaction i guess.

On the other hand....

Welcome back Jennifer!!

U were surely missed by most. Aspecially Andrew. Please take him from me! TAKE HIM!!!! Far far if possible! Hee Hee! Anyway glad you managed to finish up your law course and made it back. Afterall, there's no place like home eh...

I guess Sow really read me like a book the other day. As in my looks these days are filled with nothing but fake expressions which only fill the purpose in satisfying people's needs and not mine alone. In other words, he managed to see through what i was showing upfront where others couldn't. There's nothing really bothering me to that extent but i guess it's just aimless and endless boredome. A little bit of tension here and there from parents and some friends.

Until my birthday came, i was reassured of my place in certain friends who called and cared. As little as a call made my day. Like i said, easily satisfied which proves to be a good habit personally. That day really brightened me up as i knew then those who still cherish.

Everything is finally up, cept for the Pictures page i hardly added any pixs in it. I guess for the mean time i must be satisfied. At least everything is working properly....i think. Let's see, i added my button, did some changes in the About page, archives are up, and of course my horrible pictures.

I must say that building a webpage really does bring back memories back in the ol' Geocities days where everyone had a personal webpage. Which was of course the 'IN' thing then. Not forgetting we had to built the entire site with notepad! I think sow still does. My hat to you sow. =D

Had lunch with jessie, wei chen, and leong this afternoon at Maverik's place. Surprisingly i could wake up on time cause we had a really late night at bangsar last night. Only, gavin was with us instead of jessie. He was mostly the highlight of the conversation last night as he kept making us laugh and all. Telling us all bout his fumbles on chick convos. Hee Hee!

Think sui lin should be done with her exams by today. Hope u did well! I miss cris alot. And patsy as well! Enjoying your holiday eh.

Oh shit i forgot to call mei jin last night. Was thinking and thinking on what had slipped my mind that i had to do. Lingering here and there but couldn't recall. She'll be going down to Singapore later today for a wedding ceremony.

I'll be attending sow's, wei chen's, quo zing's, levin's and meng jinn's graduation tomorrow(thursday)! Seems sow had an extra ticket so i thought why not? The whole lot of them came for mine so of course i should go for theirs. To me, personally, i think i find it really nice and touching, with a little warm feeling inside, to watch friends wear the damn square hat. Can also observe the parents going havok there seeing their kids graduating. I'm telling you, they're crazy!

Hope you're doing better celyn. Ups and downs remember. Keep an optimistic mind, have faith and i'm sure things would turn out for the better. Luv ya! *hug

' I was left to cry there,

Waiting outside there

Grinning with a lost stare '

- Avril Lavigne -

I guess u could call it a dream come true that i've finally am able to obtain nottifish.com. Really wanted it way when i was in Melbourne but, like the still existing reason, i don't have a credit card to purchase the domain. I was actually contemplating on www.benhai.com, www.benzilla.com, and www.nottifish.com. Would u believe that the 2 other domains are already taken? Try it out. Weirdos i guess...

Anyway thanks again everyone for helping to make this site possible. Aspecially sow, wei chen, crist, and cheng leong who helped out more then i've ever asked for. Luv you guys.

To me, personally, i wanted my own blog to be REALLY simple, design and concept wise, hence the lack of uber coolness and flashiness in this site. A weblog site whole be user-friendly with easy navigation. Should load fairly fast as well. Since i'm GONNA be the one and only one using a dial up 56K line, the site would still load slow on my comp.

*all the best to sui lin today as she's having her CNDS exam paper if i'm not mistaken. That subject is some massive shit man without tips.