I'll bring you back to the stars.

After foosball today at hartamas, me and my friends decided to meet up with the rest who were fishing at Kelana Jaya. Notice the lack of activities we have nowadays. As you can see from the picture, we had absolutely nothing better to do while waiting for their rodes to vibrate. Mossies were abundant so we drown our time gambling with some card games. Sticking a card on your fore head is never a recognised gambling card game but these guys went and wrote the book.

Fishing is never a favourite of mine though heaps of friends and even my own dad loves it. I do acknowledge the joy which is the same as other sports, but hell patience doesn't really do well in me. And being on top of the food chain for tEh mossies are a no no as well. *insert middle finger here. But yeah aside from the negative points stated, it can be really relaxing just chillin there with the breezing wind blowing at your face.


Who can guess where i took this KFC outlet from? =D Anyway i was taking away some food from there and instantly it hit me that Pat lurves KFC as much as i lurve naked chicks. Though i would always still prefer Maccas(the hell u spell the short form?), KFC have proven time and time again that the chicken if one of the best aside fromt he fries, burgers and wedges which are all a little less tempting. Hope the pictures would cheer u up from the issues that u're going through babes. *hUgs =D

Ok, while we were in hartamas just now, the whole lot of us were trying to think of a scam/master plan that could bring Sui's site down to nothing more to third place. =D tee hee! I know it's sad that we're having this unconditional blog war but hell its fun! I mean, stating the obvious, mine, Sow's, Gavin's, and probably also Leong's site are not as leet as hers. Contemplation of ideas like posting of porn, man tits, subscribing to camwhore sites, developing programs to sabotage her site, etc were discussed among the challengers.

Almost concluded on using the porn/man tits/camwhore sites plan but we were hit with the reality of what if Sui Lin posted half naked pics on her site? Hell she doesn't even have to! Just some notty teasing ones minus exposing anything would certainly bring down all our sites thats for so sure man! Scrapped the plan and we were back to square one which we could only pray that hopefully one fine day Sui would loose her h0t and seXXeeness and then guys wouldn't pry on her site that often anymore. teee heee!!! This is so mean of me. Sui you're still tops alrights. *hug =D

Midro's signature | Bass Station second album | Midro's Signature

Weeeeee yeah i got his signature finally after so long! I know i'm a demented fanatic of his but hell it was worth every effort! The rumours were true that Midro was still in town on saturday when he was supposed to be at Adelaide spinning. Think the excitement at Petaling Street has caused him to delay his flight back. After some confusion on where he was spinning that night, was either, voyeur bangsar, barcode, or bar med. Frankly i would have preferred either barcode or voyeur as bar med is really not the type of place where i would want people to find me at.

So yeah, once again we waited patiently till 1 a.m for his session. Then it was announced "Now presenting u from all the way down under, Jason Midro!!!" Somewhere along the line there lah i guess. But yeah anyway, most of us were hanging out at the bar upstairs which was fairly a distance from the man himself. In result, we could not really feel the vibe when he was banging his tunes.

I quickly made my way through the endless crowd of SUPER ah beng's and got me a place in front at the right side slightly above the Dj console. There he was, in all his glory, spinning endlessly like there was no end and me just standing there enjoying every single moment of it. The tunes were so amazing that i don't even need to dance to fully enjoy and appreciate each track he hammered.

He played tracks like SpeakerFreaks - POS 51, Jurgen Vries - The Theme, Cosmic Gate - The truth (once again) and some other which i don't know the name. But at the starting he hammered most of his new album tracks. I swear i'm never gonna feel anything better at any raves compared to this.

Ok back to reality. Not surprising Sui's site has generated enough hits to be down for some time. Not to mention she ALREADY increased her bandwith limit as of last time but yet it still exceeded. *turning hostile This means war! Sow!!! What's the plan of attack! She's only but one, we're two! Gawdd that sounded really sad.

Many of us were so fired up bout the rave last thursday at Mines. I'll jump to the chase. We missed Jungle Jerry's set as we arrived bout 10:30 p.m. However, Maverik was up already so most of us rushed to the very front of the hall in the middle, many were just standing at their respective corners and not the middle. He is recognised by heaps as a lover of German hardhouse tunes. No surprising his tunes were hard as ever, although not as hard when he last played at Hardware03 but indeed it was banging enough to drive most of us wild. Already i was sweating quite badly then and had to sit down to rest.

There were so many familiar faces there as though the entire hall was of friends and aquaintances. Just like in Hardware03 i felt so alive to see everyone there. It's always fun to go for these kind of events with friends. Especially those who rarely follows u when it comes to raves. Just sitting there, chilling to nothing but hard banging tunes, smoking and chatting with a friend. If that's not best what is? =D

Dee Dee of Teriyaki was up next. Although he looked pretty ghey but hell his starting was amazing. Uplifting techno mix with a little NRG or some sort. It worked well to keep me moving for some time. Towards the end of his set, he was playing pretty much techno all the way so i took this limited opportunity to sit down and chill again. yeah i know i sit down a lot. Next came Thomas Schumacher who was not really my cup of tea but no doubt he was good. Many loved his tunes but i was just waiting for Jason Midro to strut his shit.

Me, Sow, Crist, Leong, went to the car park to just chill out in our cars. Waiting patiently for our guy from Bass to take his promised place at the decks.

The anticipation was mad. It seems like eternity to reach 4:30 a.m. People like me, Kalvin, Ivan, Crist, Sow, etc were in agony just waiting. Suddenly Johnnie, one of the promoter, shouted to us that Midro was coming on already (4:00am). We, in a state of trance dragged our asses back inside. Only to realise that Thomas Schumacher was still playing his set. We were like WTF??? Then only we were acknowedged that he'll be out playing at 4:30 a.m, not earlier not later.



Jason Midro, Master Kaos
It would certainly be the time of my life if these 2 would VS together in Malaysia

4:30, i saw my watch, and there he was on the decks. Maverik went up to the stage to present him to the crowd and told him that the bunch of us were big fans of his waiting endlessly for his set. Once he started everyone was hammering the floor madly. Although alot had left earlier yet there were still some who remained. I was going mad to hear all the familiar tunes he played before. The adrenaline rush was really pumping in me. Dancing none stop, rekindling the unforgetable experiences i had previously in Melbourne. Never once was i ever dissapointed at his set. I prayed that night it wouldn't be the first.

If he is not God who is? I kept asking alot of people. Kok Wing was tripping so badly and since he's another hardcore fan of midro, he was running and shouting so badly that Jit Aik and the rest were afraid of him. Something bout his facial expression that scared them. He couldn't stand the amount of excitement, which why they brought him back early. Pity the poor fella. I know how it feels, there will be a time where u would wanna sit down and rest but each tunes he played will make u just wanna stand up and dance, not wanting to waste the track and all. Couple of times i could hear my heart tumping so hard that i felt like puking but still i kept on knowing he was one in a million.

From Cosmic Gate - The Truth to Dj Energy - Excelsis he kept the crowd begging for air. I was practically gone most of the way. Exhausted to the max. Kept chanting to myself to keep going and i remember screaming alot. Alot of us were dissapointed when he didn't turn up for Hardware03, but as of thursday night, he repayed it back in FULL! Some may regard him as mellow, some 'jeng', some 'monotonous', but to me he's still a legend. I swear there'll come a promised day where everyone would fall on their knees and proclaim highly that Jason Midro is GOD!

Reinforce2
Featuring : Thomas Schumacher, Dee Dee, Jungle Jerry and

Maverick || Jason Midro

Venue : Mines International Exhibition & Convention Centre, KL
Cover : RM60 (presale starting October 1 2003)
Info : After the first party, it would be surprising what the organisers have in store for us this time.


That's all i can see from above. Nothing else matters. Nothing of my concern. Tonight, just this two who coexists in me. Bye everybody, i'm off to the second star to your right, and straight on till morning, NEVERLAND. Nuff said.

Ok this was what happened yesterday morning at bout 4 in the morning. Not a care in the world, i was surfing through some adult sites, yes porn, and u know how it's like to have countless pop up screens to suddenly infest your monitor. Usually i would just 'X' of these screens and just continue my journey to utter tranquility. But there was one screen yesterday which successfully caught my full attention. The one that states 'Jaring Tracking'. Everything from, stating my IP, service provider, what i'm running on, u name it that page was full with heaps of crucial information that could lead me to the gates of hell.

I swear i was sweating through my nuts just staring at that pop up. There was a link button there which stated 'If u see this pop up screen do click on this link' and out comes a software product for deleting files rather then cookies only on your computer. Normally these adverts are just distractions but comon! JARING TRACKING SIAL!!!! I hastly ran my spyware deletion program and also checked for virus on my computer. A handful of spyware was detected, no virus found and that was it.

I couldn't be fucked at first and was feeling really tired(no i didnt do anything considering the turn off), so i just settled for my bed and worry bout it later. I woke up at 8 in the morning!!!!!! The thoughts of interpol coming to my apartment with helicopters were drilling in my head and i just couldn't have a proper sleep. So i tried connecting online to see if there's any problem or any sort. Access Denies, Invalid username and password... those were the soulfull words i saw on my jaring connection window.

Words failed me as to what i should do. I called up Sow and asked if there's going to be interpol flying outside my window at any moment. He told me that the software product are able to trace my service provider, which is jaring, and list it on the screen. I was a little content to hear that but was still questioning why i couldn't connect online. Thank god i found a letter from jaring telling me to top up my balance. *phewwww..

On a brighter node, Reinforce 2 is tonight!!! I foresee a big crowd there. Although i've been warned that there could be a possible raid but hell i'm not going to miss this for the world. Some even asked why is Jason Midro playing the last set and not Thomas Schumacher which proved to be a little dodgey that he may not be down at all. Rekindling the lost thoughts of hardware 03. Fuck i can only but hope that he turns up this time. See you people there!!

"Lying crumpled on the floor like a worn paper towel, he felt his rage consume him. The thumping in his head reminded him he never felt so alive yet ironically never more did he want to die. He hated them. No he despised them. And the more he was reminded of it, the more his head pounded with a steady droning beat. Finally it popped. Worried he looked at him. And he looked at it. It opened it's mouth and out came......

FUCK YOU LAH!!"


- so says tEh Sow-

Yeah i know i've not been updating as frequent as before which would have cost me some hits and jeopardize my profound effort in winning Sui Lin. =D Anyway screw that dream as the white flag has already been raised a long time ago.

Since after the Linkin Park concert, my life has been more lenient, less violent, more patience, and of course monotonous. Not to mention reveling on their track every single day. Wheter i'm at home, or in the car, their songs still plays. Especially My Demceber which has currently been the priority of my life as much as me being oxygen tolerant. I think i'm beggining to realise and accept the sad truth where i'm actually moving back to either english based songs or dance tunes only. People who often sit in my car or comes over to chill at my place would come to a misconception that i'm a 'jeng' bastard who only resides in hearing chinese tunes.

It all started out in Melbourne where Chen had a selected few fairly nice chinese songs which he sometime plays, now never cause i always played it whenever i'm over at their place, when we're doing our assignment. I was shocked beyond words on how such once-considered 'jeng' songs could actually appeal to my liking. From then, i knew my life would be totally changed and that i've acknowledge that how this new breed of music has enlighten me.

With vigorous effort i've devoted my time in getting all chinese songs which i found fantastic. From blank search of kazaar, to asking each and everyone of my friends to borrow me their collection of chinese songs. I was successful in obtaining heaps of them which i loved till this very day. I was amazed at the patience and effort which was harboured in. It was really spell binding and soothing at the same time listening to artists such as Jacky Cheung, Harlem Yu, Jordan Chan, Emil Chow, Jay Chow, Richie Ren, Nicholas Tze, Andy Lau, Andy Hui, Kelly Chen, Candy Lo to name a few. Okay to name a lot actually. tee heee!

3 more days to Reinforce. I can safely admit that i'm fairly excited for it. Which was why i had forsaken Atmosphere last weekend and just hold the vibe and temptation for thursday. One can only hope and pray that it would not be a failure like Hardware 03. To others it may have been a normal dissapointment, but to me, it was personal. Although many had mentioned that Midro is a has-been, some even recognised that the quality in his music no longer surpasses the expectation of not only international crowd, but local melbourne people as well, yet i'm still blinded by his awesome mixing of Hard NRG tunes. I was also told, that he now mixes tunes which mostly caters to what the crowd loves. From what i know, to be regarded as a legend, a Dj have to spin according to his own liking to which it should generate enough crown to fit 3 football stadium *winks. Probably a little misconception there pray tell. That is of course every Dj's dream to cater for such a large crowd.

I guess income plays another important role in this profession as well. Like Oakenfold of Perfecto, although i only fancy a selected few songs of his, yet still can never understand how is he a legend compared to Midro. Only then someone told me that Oakenfold songs are of his own which he plays only to his crowd. As in his tunes are his liking and of course to the fans. But no doubt bout it, such a big name like his, it wouldn't matter at all to alot what kind of music he plays just as long as he's recognised by millions.

So yeah, this rave is personal. =D I foresee heaps of fun with loads of friends around me enjoying together.

Okay, since i can't get back to sleep at this ungodly hour, think i'll just do the update post. I slept at 12:30 p.m earlier. With my legs and back aching so badly, i couldn't stand another round of fiesta outside. Although i knew if i would sleep at that time which is early, i run the risk of waking up at this time! *sigh.. Gonna have a field day later getting back to bed. yeah but anyway...

Linkin Park! It was superb! Worth every effort and sweat. Ok, i reached the stadium bout 4:30 p.m, give and take. To no surprise it was packed with loads of people already. Crist told me that his younger brother was there at 8 in the morning! And there were already a few group of people potting there. As it was mostly free sitting and standing, heaps of people got down there really early to line up. Thanks to Leonard for letting me get in line with him and his friends.

As the time slowly went by, more and more people started trying to jump que, like me. Some didn't bother and just stood next to the waiting line in hoping to rush in when the gates open. When 6:45 p.m came, and the door opened while the usherer started collecting tickets, everyone was pushing so hard till the extent where i nearly fell over! I swear it was like as though the forsakens were trying to escape from eternal damnation. Clearly it was every man for himself, survival of the fittest kinda thing. At one point, the pushing were so severe that i was hanging on one leg and i couldn't move my hands! WHAT A HARDCORE LINKIN PARK FAN I AM!

Yeah true, there were certain point of time where i would wanna just fuck the concert and just leave back to good old damansara. Of course i kept telling myself to persist and that this was linkin park man! not some Insane Clown Posse bullshit band. Ok then came the second tedious part of the night, where everyone who got pass the ticket usher had to start running in to secure a place infront, free standing remember. Some kinda bad vibe out of a bad movie as i saw everyone fighthing they're way through. I ran as fast as my legs could carry me which was probably much slower then everyone who was on the field with me! bummer... While running i could feel the fabrication of me being a star athlete running my way to the finishing line. Fuck this, i was in the middle of a stadium for the very first time.

With a little bit of body touching, squeezing, exchanging of excuse me, yaaaooosaahhh!!! i got my place infront. Front enough for Chester's sweat to sprinkle on my left nut. Of course not. Front enough i would say. At first i was enjoying the euphoria of being infront, then came the waiting game again. People were pilling up like maggots! And the pushing started again. Gawdddd how i wish i could just burn everyone and let me stand there alone! Everyone were sweating like water fountain. And with great sweating comes great ordure. As there were mixtures of races there, you can just picture the sweet aroma of everyone including myself filling up the air.

After bout an hour an a half or so i couldn't stand it any longer and just barge my way through to the back. And yeah it was much nicer behind although yeah i've forsaken tEh very front place to the other barbarians but hell i could breath easier and not smell anyone's armpits. Too Phat was up first and being not much of a fan i just sat down and smoke my respective ciggie, waiting patiently for the right time to go crazy. When Linkin Park took their promised place on the stage, everyone went absolutely wild! It was the second coming i shit you not. And yeah Chester can really scream! They succeeded in owning the crowds. Every of their singles were played last night. From One Step Closer till Numb. People were jumping and screaming, not to mention singing as well, like there was no tomorrow.

As the concert concluded, the crowd was pleased to acknowledge that it was one hell of a night. Worth every scent spent, every sweat, every effort, every patience needed. I apologize as i didnt have a digi cam and couldn't take photos for all to see. You guys could check out Lynn's site as i'm sure she would have taken heaps.

Top Left - Right : Pull Shot Set Up, Kwee Heng and Me, Andrew and Me
Bottom Left - Right : Sophia, My Ear Hole, Sophia Again

Been playing none stop with the GRPS thingy. It's addictive! Just like that screwed up friendster. Think i should give it a rest, knowing my computer isn't exactly stable, it may fry the whole damn thing. Few days ago, this fuckhead, Cheezels2, posted some of my friends pictures on Sggirls.com which has sprouted anger among those who are in there. Personally i think fabricatings friends are really sad and fucked up. I mean comon, it's really offensive to do things against other people's better judgement. How would one feel if their pictures are on rumah awam taiwan or something? Obviously Sggirls.com may not be that bad, but yet some acknowledge it as a semi-soft-porn site although there are safety disclaimers all over.

Anyway later today Linkin Park will be performing! w00t!! w00t!! I almost forgot it's already the 15th. Hardly plan anything on how to get there, who drive and whatsoever. Probably be down there by 4:00 p.m + -. Although gates opens are 6:30 p.m, i think i better play it safe and just head down there much earlier. Overly excited people, who could cause stampedes may be already camping there! So yeah, pray it would be an exciting night.

My new tagboard is up! Thanks to Sow who wrote tEh leet board from scratch and also helped me to upload it. Click on the link "Powered by SowBoard" and where does it takes u?.......DISNEY.COM!!! And yeah, the Disney site opens entirely in the Tag Board only. Tee Hee!! Thanks to u know who. You are tEh leet i'm serious! And my java is going to be either more or as leet as you ok! First teach me some declaration, methods, attributes god dammit! =D

I've finally got my blastered 'EasyGPRS' software to run properly. I guess, due to my lack of knowledge on computer software installations and computer other things, i had some problems installing the damn program. I'm sure everyone can tell that the quality of the picture ain't exactly good, less to say even clear! Well, that's what i have to settle on with when the money ain't exactly rolling in.

This weekend was really all out as it was Atmosphere on Friday night, and Emporium just now. Was really packed on friday. Bumped into heaps of friends there. Part of the reason why there were such big crowd was because of Ah Keong's birthday. That guy really knows how to throw a big birthday bash. 12 bottles of black label was stacked on his table, not counting the endless amount of free 'mixtures' coupons he had that he gave to mostly everyone. And beers as well yeah. Again the akarians were there and by the looks on all their faces, well most of them, they were on the hunt/prowl for chicks. There's no 2 way bout it, there's bound to be some pop pop styling after that. =D

Just now, at Emporium, Scott Bond of GateCrasher was down. To my surprise he played a fantastic set. Not progresive trance, not hard trance but uplifting trance which provoked the crowd to go wild and asked for more. I swear from the drinks i had with the coupon and with Darren (was his birthday), i could practically imagine i was flying when each break was played. Now that is the kinda fun and feeling one should have when they're clubbing. Oh ya, Emporium is infested with heaps of malays that were shuffling like crazy. For a moment there i felt at home. The mix culture of chinese and malays were cheering for one another there like as though they were buddies for sometime. Which of course made the environment more enjoyable.

I was totally beat by 2:30 pm. It was like a fucking sauna in there i shit u not. The music was so intense, which droved everyone stomping none stop, that i could actually smell every tom dick and harry there! By the end of the night i was half drenched from top to middle. Like i said, shuffling + smoking + fat = gasping for air none stop. Shuffle for 2 minutes, rest one hour. Yeah probably the fuckhead 'U are fat' was right.... no he was wrong, i'm beyond fat. tee hee! Hell i care though. Disturbing is a fact but it's fun to be bubbly and jovial. What the fuck am i saying. hahahahha

Before i forget.. Thanks Meng for inviting me over for your house warming party. Although it was for a short while, but yet no doubt it was fun just chilling there. Sorry i had to rush off so early. Will make it up to you dude. On a darker, ermmm much darker note, Don Don killed my cat!!! He finally took his revenge cause i kept disturbing Sam on Saturday that the cops will be raiding Atmosphere that night. tee hee! It's ok dude. Just a cyber cat anyway so no worries.


- Don, Kit, and Ben -

They're just all mad people who lives life to tEh fullest no matter what. Always a pleasure people!

The hell the quote above meant? Ahh it's just one of those fuck-i-wanna-put-a-really-leet-topic-but-can't-think-of-any kinda thing. Seems that these few days, the nights of mindless slacking ends pretty early. Which explains my undying boredom. Tonight, was taking a nap, go for footsol, yam chah, and then plain chilling at Sow's. It actually suppose to stop at yam chah, but how could i call it a night at 1:15 a.m? There's absolutely nothing to do at home cept for surfing round people's blogs, checking status of jobs applied, watch astro and that's bout it. Even this post is getting to be so boring.

Came across these pictures while i was browsing through my comp for interesting stuffs. Obviously i didn't find any.


Pilot Wee at work

Taken from my place up at St Kilda. From the lack of intelligence (me and Ju), i hope u guys can tell that Melbourne was not at all that entertaining as presumed. Notice the kitchen is so empty and what the hell was the iron doing on top there. We rarely cook as our time tables are so different and packed. The blardee fridge was not purchased yet as well then! But like i said over and over again, it was certainly an experience which i never regreted. I too had my fair share of fun and excitement. Yeah and i pride myself over the fact that i actually made it through without my parents there having to nag me from time to time. rawr! =D Give it a try... to study abroad. I swear when u're aware that u are reponsible enough to gauge your time properly for fun and studies, the feeling is fantastic.

Crist will be performing tomorrow at Bar Med. Do give your supports people! I foresee a night of 'yau leng lui ah mou leng lui! yau leng lui yau emm sap(50) sui!' Gawwd i can feel the sudden rise of 'ah jeng'ness in me. Gotta stop gotta stop....

As Underworld is currently banned in Malaysia, i've resolved into purchasing the VCD instead which i highly objected at first knowing the movie would ROCK better in big screens. There's no two way bout our Malaysian Cencorship board which is beyond stupid and unreasonable.

The show was entertaining yet dissapointing in certain ways. Yeah true, it was some modern day Romeo and Juliet. Both covenant was protecting their kinds from one another. It would be kinda exciting to be one of them and fight to avoid extinction. Survival of the fittest. To me, being either the vampires or the lycans wouldn't matter. Instead, knowing i'm considered to be of homosuperior and am above the sub-standard being of humans would prove to be a fact certainly proud of. =D I mean who doesn't dream of being omnipotent at least once in their life. Don't tell me you guys never caught a single movie/episode of Superman and wanted to be like him? So yeah, it's still in me to dream of being invinsible.

Two days back i had an accident with another car at some traffic light near Dharoos. I was driving at a decent speed since the weather wasn't exactly encouraging. As i approached the traffic light, which has turned orange already, the driver of the car infront of me drove as though he's wasn't going to stop for the lights and just turn the corner. So yeah i was like 'fine ok. Let's go!' I hammered the accelerator and when i was going to pass the lights, the fucker jammed his fucking good for nothing Iswara-only semi-DRUM breaks which surprisingly brought the car to a definate halt. Fuck i thought, i too had to jam tEh breaks then, stating the obvious. My tyres locked but my suped up power 1.3 Satria couldn't stop there and then! Thank god it stopped just barely hitting his Iswara's ass. Thought i was safe then, then suddenly the fucker's reverse lights shined directly at my and he started reversing. Can't recalled much but i remembered hearing a loud CHEE BAAA BOOM! I came down from the car to inspect how bad the damage was. Was shocked to see no damage was done to my front, not even a SCRATCH! The poor fucker's lights were broken. Since he didn't even bother to come down from the car i just sped of when the lights turned green.

I didnt even know if it was a he or she, a ching or malai, a ninja or a wantan, and the list goes on. =p No offence people. It only applies to the driver. *sigh. Ok it's time to play with my lapsaps and head to bed. Feel like a change man after last night. Think it's finally time....... to contemplate on quitting the inhalation and exhalation of good ol' dunhill lights.

Ben in Brisbane

That's not me in the picture...which is stating the obvious. It's my fren who shares the same name as me. Congratulations Ben on graduating! Wasn't as difficult as u expected it to be eh? =D I swear he looks like a grim reaper who just got lost in time. Think he's one of the only Ben in this world who is considered 'HOT' among tEh chicks. Hee Hee!

Had a really exhausting 'lim teh' session with Sow, Wei Chen, Hon Hing and Sophia just now at Lutong. They were all actually at Cristro's having heaps of drinks as Faith would be returning back to New Zealand tonight. Crist was pretty much scattered when i reached there. He usually gets himself into these kinda mess. First it would be prompting others to drink, with the intentions of getting everyone plastered without realising tEh consequenses that it may provoke. True enough everyone was asking Crist to down practically every drink that was on the table! Even to the extent where the rest would buy him drinks and ask the waiter to say it's on the house.

Then came the time for the usual routine for one who had gotten intoxicated. The toilet. He was so fucked till he was talking to everyone, well mostly, who came in and out from there. Tee Hee! One for the road of friendship eh Crist? As always right? =D Enjoy being around him when he's gone. So yeah i left the scene when Kah Wai and Hon Hing were indulging in mindless sex conversation. Mind you, they were pretty loud with the talking and people were all staring! I was like Gawdddddd. But yeah i was laughing my ass off too. When to Lutong to meet up with Andrew and the rest for while then the above mentioned came later. Joined them once Andrew, etc left.

Expected Hon Hing would always be the main punt in the conversation with his ample amount of car crash, sex crave stories. I was laughing so much till it actually hurts inside. Everything from spunking on couch to banging a kancil and forcing it to go at 170 kmh +- on a highway was shared. Although we've been through these convo countless amount of times, yet it's still as entertaining as hell. This is the fine line that differentiates the kind of convo i indulge in with different group of friends. Both are laughable and enjoyable. Andrew and me + plus the others loves to talk cock alot and also prompting others to visualise stupid, yet crazy stuffs. And it's fun to the max. Sow and me + the rest loves to just laugh and laugh bout mindless mental things that doesn't make sense at all. Though both groups are really open on conversations, but it's just different on the topics. I love both sidess! Hell i love my frenss... Love them all! This is life at it's fullest i swear!

Anyway Faith will be leaving tonight as mentioned. Take care girl and study hard. Though i may not be potraying it, i'm really gonna miss u heaps! I said it before, u are really dear to me inside. There's no difference in the level of friendship we have as the first time we met. And i do mean every word i said last night at Cristro's. :) Trust me... *hugs


As adorable as Celyn

Had a somewhat semi-dejavuish nightmare this morning. I dreamt that i had lost the necklace thingy that Celyn asked me to pass to Faith. Now in nature if i loose something which isn't mine i would start hyperventilating and get myself all stressed up. Guess in the dreams it still applies. To my surprise, i woke up from it before i could even start looking for it in the dream. Quickly i ransacked all my drawers to confirm i still have it with me. I can only vaguely make out that i had brought it down from the car if i'm not mistaken that is. It was no where to be seen. Thought that this time the calling from god is real and that i'm really fucked. Looked in my closet, pants, washing machine, everywhere u name it, i searched.

Last resort was of course my car. I could be bothered changing to just go down and search my car so i just ran down in my PJs. YOWWSAAAHH!!! It was in the car.... but at the BACKSEAT! how could it have end up there i wondered. I mean i knew i put it infront at the space below the hand break. I was so wide awake that i felt really shitty. Worst part is i couldn't go back to sleep. sheessh.

Atmosphere last night was fairly enjoyable. Went there hoping to meet up with Johnson, Crist, Leong, Kit, Meng, etc there after they're done with The Disco at jalan Pudu. I knew teh akarians and some other distant friends would be there as it was Friday so i wouldn't be all alone there. Now if it was in Melbourne Hard Kandy or Bass Station i wouldn't mind going all out alone. I always did anyway cause the locals there are really friendly and they would make u feel at home. However, in atmosphere, you can only but hope and pray that people wouldn't give u the 'what the fuck u're looking at' look.

Johnson and the rest didn't manage to make it to Atmosphere at last, but it was cool. I did enjoyed myself last night although i was not with the usual bunch. Like i said before, it kinda gives me a warm feeling to mingle with acquaintances once in a while. Meng Jinn was there too! Glad you made it man. Oh ya, i met up with Joyce as well there. That girl is crazy, work from 9 to 12 in a heavily infested place in kepong, then rush down all the way to Atmosphere in KL. But yeah, it's her friend's Richard's, i think, birthday. Boy there were full of drunk people in the VIP spot.

I wonder what's the plan gonna be tonight. As always our choices is but limited to a selected few. Looks like it's gonna be foosball styling as always. There're no nice movie at the theaters nowadays cept for the Once Upon A Time In Mexico which i haven't catch yet. Alas, tickets would be highly impossible to obtain now anyway. So yeah, FOOSBALL HERE I COME!

Me and some buddies had a long 'talk' with this fren of ours. Was really satisfying although it wasn't really fruitful. He had a change of attitude since a certain someone appeared in his life, and also due to his seriousness in foosball. How can one dropped old ones for new ones like totally? I mean i don't understand when he stated "i don't need friends to survive". Yes, he did defend himself on that saying where he doesn't like to rely on any and that may prove to be a strong point. But how far from the truth did he expose from that sentense alone? He was a person who had trusting issues cause alot of friends he opened to dissapointed him. But like that's how way back? 6, 7 years ago? i mean common, everybody deserves a second chance and u have to leave room for an individual to mature.

Judging from his explanation, is as though he had concluded that almost everyone in the group had/ will dissapoint him and that is why he comes and go. WTF? Although one may not be trust worthy, you can't hold the entire group responsible for it. In first place it's not anyone's fault that you may have issues with another. We're mature enough to not give a damn. I seriously give up on trying to dissect what is he trying to say as he keeps coming up with stuffs that doesn't make sense. How can you expect to be close to everyone in a group and pray that u have unintentional chemistry with them? It doesn't make sense at all. Everyone are only human and are not perfect due to the mistakes that one may make. Or in this case, assumes.

Action speaks louder then words no doubt. You may think that they don't understand and accept your point of view, but without explanations and clarifications, it'll be only normal for those to assume that you don give 2 fucks. There's a fine line between close friends and acquaintances. Only a selected few would be genuine and trustworthy for percentage have pride in their mistakes, yet that doesn't mean those aren't friends at all. U get along with some not all. This is shit. I may not be the best person to comment on him cause i do have my fair share of fuck ups with friends but at least i do try, and do make an effort, to either change or clarify things. Even to this day i'm sure i've dissapointed many in things relating to friendship. Someone once told me to just give up and learn that one can't please the whole world. Adviced me to start giving an eye full on those who understands and cares.

I use to screw things up with close friends, even childhood ones, with pride. Despite of what had happen, i'm only human like i always said, and i do make mistakes. I can only hope, not expect, that they understand and teach when i go astray. It was so bad till i nearly lost everyone who i was holding dear to me. People who knows me well, would understand that friends are a big part of my life and i wouldn't know what i would be without most of them. I fought with Zing before, Hon Hing, Mel, Crist, wait did i fought with Crist before? Not that i can recall. Hell i even fought with Sow not once but a couple of times. I remember those 'i don wanna friend u' days man. Hee Hee! I mean how can u stand a person who fabricated a gory murder that took place near our neighbourhood, who put chili sauce, which was as real as my left nut i swear, on the roadside to prove that it was blood stains from the supposed victim. What's worst i believed the entire freak show!!. I was like totally petrified that SWEET LORD I MAY SEE A DEAD BODY! Goddd those were the days eh Sow? That was good i must admit. I was fucked to the maximum.

God i'm so boring laying out nothing but pure text on my blog. How to beat Sui like that!! If i have a pair of huge knockers and a fine size of currypuff that shoots out tranquilities to those who caress it, i may just be able to beat her. *sigh* Hee Hee! You ROCK Sui!! Anyway this site, www.nottifish.com, is just to fulfill one of Mak's desire on having his own website. Sort of a tribute you can say. =D *prays that this humbleness would generate more hits!* kekekekekkeke! To those who made this site possible, thanks again from the bottom of my heart. God i'm so emo. Nite....