I'll bring you back to the stars.

It's time for everyone to unite tonight at Bar Savanh and BOMB KOW THE HELL OUT of SUI LIN, GAVIN, and CRIST!!!! Crist cause it's for his birthday! Gavin cause he's leaving and cause he's an easy target! and not forgetting Sui Lin cause she's a girl and that's she's leaving as well. Although her alcohol tolerance may tip the scale a little but hell if everyone combine, she's confirmed F @ # $ E D!!!! =D LOL *insert evil laughter here* So everyone, be nice and just GIVE IT TO THEM LA!!

This chinese new year has certainly been a different one for me. I never resorted to even a taint of gambling although yeah i did initiate some blowing of cash in mike's house. That was also because i had one to many tigers. Never had i understood how one would be able to bring him/herself to actually throw that big of an amount on the table knowing the risks of loosing it was involved. Although yeah i never doubted the fun and adrenaline rush any may feel in the game but by looking at the amount of money on the table it still questions me.

A friend just asked me today if i was alright and that if there were anything currently on my mind which proves to be troubling. True, random thoughts seems to be infesting in my head as i see everyone around me. Normal i guess, but this time around things are pretty deep and i can't seem to get them out of my system. Nevertheless it doesn't really bothers me anymore as i've already done my part in staying away. Maybe that's why i was questioned if there was anything wrong with me.

If i were to be like of past, certainly i would get all frantic and frail and of course disturbed. Not this time, i'm never going through that ordeal any more. i've always thought myself to be different from others and that i could never be like how anyone could. Partly that's the reason why i should keep the distance. Better for everyone. I may seem a little lost now infront of others but certainly it's more fun this way. Tensions and problems are amiss.

Anyway, this is what happens when 2 ma fuckers consume excessive amount of beer.

Haven't the time and strength to update lately due to me always being out till 6 in the morning. At that time i don't have ths strength to even go online less to say update. It's getting crazier and crazier i swear. As time passes i should actually be striving to get my proper time back but instead it seems to be getting worst. My bad my bad.

There's not much to update as i made it a point to not be emo on this post. So i'll just post up a picture or two of Sow's birthday which he celebrated at Deautche's House and of course the formal dinner i had with some friends at Shook's.


Me and Sow


Sow doing tEh Got Milk thang


Shanon, Sui San, Mindy, Jen, Sophia and Celyn


Guy, Me, Kwee Heng, Lee and Andrew

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Happy Chinese New Year !!!

I have done what some may consider one of the most difficult task given to me. In wasn't exactly a pleasent experience, actually it wasn't a trip to disney land at all, instead it was more like lighting a match and swallow the whole damn thing. Yet... i am proud in a way that i managed to gather every sense of reality and just go right ahead with the whole fucking thing. Never... never again i promise. It's utter bullshit to state the truth. Lessons taught, lessons learnt. Don ever play with fire when u know u'll end up getting burnt. Any of you insensitive fuckers think i'm some prick who doesn't know what's right from wrong, understand this, i'm still oxygen tolerant with an off-the-chart patience level who still knows what the fuck he's doing.

The trip downunder was what i needed. An escape which i took advantage fully. Walking down the city all by myself without a care in the world. Knowing not only i'm by myself, but also being free of all things that were bothering me. It was definitely hell fun. Getting all exposed to a different environment certainly triggered the euphoric vibes in me. Being plastered was an understatement. What's more tranquilic then busting your cash on beer to stress the strings of one's density eh? Obviously these indulgence comes along with a high price of getting splitting headaches, remembering vaguely the amount of fucked up stuffs u done, getting all emo, and of course the reality of being broke the very next day. Regrets? hell no! The kick compensates in full. =D *does the straws action* Now i'm back, nevertheless this is my home, this is where i belong.

I noticed lately that there are still heaps of meaningful stuff one could learn from others. Even those who u may regard different and that their wave length are incoherent with the ones of yours. It's like before this i may have thought that i got it all firgured out, and that this is how it should be, nothing less nothing more kinda thang?, but often, without fail i'll be sloshed with new thoughts that may have seemed fairly simple yet they appeared to be deep.

A friend of mine, whose life is slightly a little off course different from mine, taught me something which i would regard now as being one of the most important advice i had ever received. He said to me 'chui kan yu hai lei chee kei hoi sum' / 'the most important thing is that u yourself is happy'. Simple isn't it? and of course everyone have heard this phrase before. Even me, countless amount of times. But this time it was different, not only because it came from this friend, but when i attempted to dissect the whole phrase thoroughly, taking in regard of specific related experiences, i finally understood what it meant to me personally and how that a simple of a phrase meant heaps.

I was happy naturally, better than i've been in a long while. I can't really explain fully how these little things have affected me emotionally. It's a personal kinda feeling which everyone would endure eventually. Be a little more open, accepting and hell the possibilities are endless. =D

What a slow friday night it has been for some of my friends and me. There were absolutely nothing to indulge in that would fancy the whole bunch of us. The night started out with us hanging out at Andrew's place and me being all bored i decided to take some random shots.

sandra and alan	loraine and meng jinn
William being all smiley	I was bored remember

sau yan and jen

After a while, we resort to snorting K (cocaine) in hoping it would rid the boredom which dwells in us.





An experience which should be tried by not only the few of us but everyone as well! We were actually helping Andrew's mom separating the transparent rice from the solid rice. It goes to show we were REALLY THAT bored.



The clock struck 12 and the whole bunch of us decided to take a trip down to Petaling Street to chomp tEh infamous Loh Shee Fan (one of my all time favourite place). I think we ordered a little too much cause left overs were abundant which normally doesn't happen. *scratches head* Oh well, at least we enjoyed stuffing ourselves though.







Although tonight was pretty compulsive, nevertheless all i felt was satisfaction as i was given enough today to be happy. *buys a coffin and starts digging*

It has been a rather interesting night for me. fun? yeah of course no doubt. I wouldn't have expected anything less especially in a rave where the agents are spinning. Confined place with a huge crowd but nevertheless controllable. I guess it was different from the other parties being that alot of people know one another there. It was more of a reuinion thing plus hard thumping tunes.

It's already a new year but why am i still feeling so empty and not being overjoyed? I guess, like some said, it's just another ordinary monotonous day where every normal activity takes it's place. Here i am typing with disappointment yet having a slight pinch of hope that it's gonna be a really good day if i choose to make it be. I know not what i seek anymore. No, actually i wouldn't want what i seek anymore though i still crave for it.

On a much brighter node, my sis is back from Texas. She was pursueing her masters in environmental science (which i think it's utter madness) at UT. It's good to have an extra person at home. Knowing now i'll surely be a little less tense around everybody. Yeah, if i'm to make a new year's resolution it would surely be the one where i should patch things up with my family.