This is one of those times where everything doesn't seem to fit to your liking. I woke up today with a really heavy heart knowing that the day is finally here. In addition to that, the sky was dark like hai as though it was gonna pour heavily. Only it was not dark at all. i went down to pick up the package, it was my first time and there it was finally, the thing that i have never indulge in before, right infront of my eyes and i thought to myself. GOD SHIT IT'S NICE! Costly though but with THAT smile i knew it was worth every dollar spent.
It hit me kinda fast today, frankly i was surprise that i could actually be brought down to that extent. No fun... no fun at all i swear. But yet it still comforts me that by being slumped, it proves how deep, sincere, special and of course unique the whole journey was. When i wanted something there it was, when i wanted to be heard i was heard, when i needed encouragement it was paid in full. Never once was i ever dissapointed.
Although i may seem the elder one, i was taught many things which either i've never came across or i've been taking advantage off. Basically i was always reminded of the right path to take. Percentage always look at me as the comforter. Being the confined type it was never an option. Till i was shown that it was ok to be the one asking for the shoulder instead of always providing when getting fucked over. Shocked i was at first cause i've never gone down this road before. Learning to adapt made every effort harboured worthy.
It's surely a matter of getting use to but i'm sure it'll be fine in the end. Dreams are meant to be lived and selfishness has to be put aside. I know it's shitty to be brought down like that, hence i would never trade places in a million years. I've gone through that road and it's not a tint of disney land i can say. Heads must be kept high with an open mind and things would then be fine. You've been nothing short of a really great and genuine friend and for that i'm missing you already......... this is so fucked up.
