I believe in looking reality straight in the eye and denying it.
Monday, August 23, 2004 at 4:46 AM | Posted by NottifishThese days there seems to be something disturbing troubling me. Like as though, there's nothing but emptiness residing inside. I can't really explain it but it's like one of those things I get all of a sudden. Although, I'm sure for certain it's just temporary, a passing phase. The question is only which? The troubled thoughts or the peaceful ones.
Reality is something I can't seem to realize anymore. Something or somewhat is blurring off my sense where I can't differentiate the controversy of it. Yeah it's all about keeping it real and straight forward but how many of us fully practice this concept? I can never comprehend.
It's just one of those days where everything seems to be going right but yet I don't feel it does. No matter how simple a day for me it is I would still make the best out of it and most importantly, enjoy every single bit. Like today, I know I could be feeling much better then what I am but it's still out of my grasp. And it's not pleasing at all.
It's not out in the open cause its effort worth making by suppressing it all. Like disease, it spreads when exposed. I don't like it one bit... not at all. In fact I detest it. It's no fun at all going around trying to hide from reality which, in the first place, I haven't even begin to understand what it means to me personally.
But I tend to have the tendency to realize, as days go by, things would eventually turn out for the better. Can be true, or maybe it's denial, an escape I tend to overuse. Nevertheless it does make a person feel whole again. That's when I know it's only a matter of time I have to face the horrible truth that reality does exist. That's when I know that I'm only but human and I do make mistakes. That's when I know that I can learn and excel. That's when I know impossible is nothing to me.
