It's dawning upon me...
Wednesday, February 21, 2007 at 1:11 PM | Posted by NottifishBeen getting up pretty early nowadays. 6:15 am sure isn’t an ideal time for someone like me but it is the perfect time to be heading down to work. Work begins at 8 in the morning and I just love nothing better than to cruise myself in darkness rather than having the pathetic morning beams aching through the corner of my eyes.
I tend to reminisce better without the light. Peace, calm and silence are 3 crucial factors I need in order for me to tweak myself in order. It’s when the world disappears and I’m left with nothing than myself and my bass, that I can truly reminisce and learn.
As of late, I hardly mingle after work anymore. Some may regard it as sad, but I for one pride myself by having fun alone. It’s been a while like I’ve mentioned in the previous post. Grabbing my keys and bringing my baby down for a wash is still worth every penny. Waiting patiently for her to finish her spa, I again have time to listen and monitor the people around me. Not eaves dropping, but instead, paying attention as their actions speak so much louder and clearer.
What goes through each and everyone else’s mind tends to bring a big question mark in my curious head. How could they think of this? How can they behave as such? Why are they laughing like that? What is that which they find so amusing? Etc. So many questions which love to haunt me. Enticing nonetheless as I have not much of a choice but to draw my own conclusions on other’s behaviors.
This CNY has been pretty much the same, mundane and boring. Year after year I’m stuck with the same activities. Visiting relatives and friends and of course putting a little more effort each time to get my hands on red packets. Don’t get me wrong, the boringness only comes after the visiting and meals. Gambling is the ultimate high during this festive season and it’s something which I don’t partake in.
So what does someone like Ben Hon does when everyone’s celebrating? He does what he usually does; killing time by venturing into things which he doesn’t mind doing, drowning in total blankness.
I tend to reminisce better without the light. Peace, calm and silence are 3 crucial factors I need in order for me to tweak myself in order. It’s when the world disappears and I’m left with nothing than myself and my bass, that I can truly reminisce and learn.
As of late, I hardly mingle after work anymore. Some may regard it as sad, but I for one pride myself by having fun alone. It’s been a while like I’ve mentioned in the previous post. Grabbing my keys and bringing my baby down for a wash is still worth every penny. Waiting patiently for her to finish her spa, I again have time to listen and monitor the people around me. Not eaves dropping, but instead, paying attention as their actions speak so much louder and clearer.
What goes through each and everyone else’s mind tends to bring a big question mark in my curious head. How could they think of this? How can they behave as such? Why are they laughing like that? What is that which they find so amusing? Etc. So many questions which love to haunt me. Enticing nonetheless as I have not much of a choice but to draw my own conclusions on other’s behaviors.
This CNY has been pretty much the same, mundane and boring. Year after year I’m stuck with the same activities. Visiting relatives and friends and of course putting a little more effort each time to get my hands on red packets. Don’t get me wrong, the boringness only comes after the visiting and meals. Gambling is the ultimate high during this festive season and it’s something which I don’t partake in.
So what does someone like Ben Hon does when everyone’s celebrating? He does what he usually does; killing time by venturing into things which he doesn’t mind doing, drowning in total blankness.
I understand now on how others can never be alone when they’re all by themselves. With everything surrounding me, I have everything I need to fancy myself silly.
